Lyric In Her Own Words - I Could've Been

You never wanted to see me leave this.
I never wanted to stick around.
And there's a rainstorm in my head that I just can't outrun right now.
I'm faking smiles and stomachs aches so I can get away.
Sometimes I think that I'm the only one who feels this way.
The only things holding me back are my own thoughts in my head.
And I can't understand why I can't just move on and get passed them.
It's probably my own fault, and who's to say I can't fix it? But maybe sometimes life just gets in the way.
I thought that with a change of pace, that I could get the hang of this.
You're just another something that I can't seem to erase.
I thought that with a change of pace, that things would start to feel okay again.
I guess I'm never gonna learn.
I tried to make it to the ending of a book I never read.
I'm relapsing to my old self trying to skip all these steps.
I'm faking smiles and stomach aches when I start to feel trapped.
It's hard to breathe.
I never thought that I would lie to the ones who stay close to me.
I thought that with a change of pace, that I could get the hang of this.
You're just another something that I can't seem to erase.
I thought that with a change of pace, that things would start to feel okay again.
I guess I'm never gonna learn.
Could you tell I wasn't honest? (I could've been.
) I couldn't be all that you wanted.